Living in Anticipation
I still remember the time Andrew and I were standing outside The Art Institute of Chicago in December. It may have been the first Christmas I spent with his family. He had asked me to not only spend extended time with them after a few short months of dating, but also drive with him all the way to Illinois from Rhode Island. But that’s besides the point.
The lion statue outside The Art Institute were adorned with wreaths or bows or maybe both for the holiday season. So naturally, I wanted to snap a photo. For those who don’t know, the museum hosts approximately 1.5 million guests per year and is also by ‘the bean,’ or Cloud Gate at Millennium Park, so foot traffic in the area rarely ceases. We waited for a lull to come. And one almost did—I waited for the last-ish pedestrian to pass when she stopped, stopping the others approaching behind her, and shouted, “Do it! Now’s your chance!”
I will never forget that woman. Or the fact that I still hesitated before finally snapping the photo.
There are so many things in life we needlessly wait for—ticking off a bucket list item, traveling to Paris, seeing the cherry blossoms in peak bloom, messaging a good friend you haven’t spoken to in a while. The rationale is either that you don’t have time or that there will always be another time. But the truth is, you have as many hours in a day as Beyonce, or at least you always have time for the things you make time for. And if you keep waiting for ‘another time,’ your time will run out.
There are some major things in life that I’ve been waiting a long time for because I thought I needed time to work towards them. But I’ve found lately that time has only been working against me. So I’m reminding myself of that woman that day in Chicago and to put my firsts first—the first item on my bucket list, the first destination on my travel list, the first good day to see the blooms, the first moment I think to message that person, for example.
Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.
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